Unearthing the Gift

In February, I devoted my crystal connection to a pretty potent stone known as amazonite. If you research the metaphysical properties of amazonite online, you will read that it helps you connect with your authentic self. I can say that each time I have pick up amazonite to work with, this has been true for me.

Connecting with the energy of amazonite always leads me in the direction of finding my self. It sounds very easy doesn’t it? “Carry some amazonite around, it will help you connect to your real authentic self!” But what the instructions don’t tell you is that in order to connect to your real authentic self, the other self (the fake self) you have been living with, building up, and introducing to your friends and acquaintances has to go.

This “side effect” of working with amazonite is not as glamorous as connecting to your authentic self, but it’s a non-negociable part of the journey. For me this journey to my authentic self always begins with the question: what am I doing with my life? Followed by these other equally imposing questions: Am I doing what I am meant to be doing? Am I sharing my gifts for the benefit of the word? Am I following my passion and living my life purpose?

I’m not going to lie, when these questions become alive in my heart and my mind it causes me a lot anxiety and emotional distress. I journal a lot. I talk to my loved ones. I begin planning and writing in detail where I think I want to go and how I can get there as quickly as possible.  I am forced to face the reality of my life. I have to look at myself as objectively as I can. If I am not careful, I will start berating myself for not being where I think I am meant to be.

This time around my journey to myself did not end with me beating myself up for not living my dream life. This time, I rested in the knowledge that I am in just the right place, doing the right thing, talking to the right people who need me in their life at this moment. But in order to arrive at this conclusion I had to answer all the above questions and be uncomfortable for some time while the process of re-discovery was taking place.

If you feel that your life is not going in the right direction or you feel stuck, or you feel like a fake, I highly recommend working with the energy of amazonite to help you along. If you have worked with amazonite, I’d love to read about your experience in the comments!