Unearthing the Gift

At the beginning of the year I did a “Year Ahead Spread” my card for the month of May was The Magician.

May was in interesting month. Not only because I kept receiving the same messages over and over in most of my card readings during the month, but also because there were some things happening at work and at home.

The Magician is the second card of the tarot. This is the cards description from the Wild Unknown App:

The Magician is a card of boundless, expansive energy. Whereas many of the major arcana deal with stillness or aspects of the mind…this card is all about action, action, action. It’s time to see yourself as the wildcat-embrace his speed, grace and abilities. Do not be afraid to begin. You have the power of all four elements within your reach. Now is the time to use them.

The message that I kept getting over and over were: “show compassion” and “let go”. I knew after receiving these messages a few times that I needed some help, I apparently was not letting go of things like I though, and I was definitely not being compassionate, with anyone, and especially not with myself.

It was tough to listen to these two messages because I thought I was good in both of these  departments. I though I was golden in the letting go side, I consciously make an effort not to take things personally, and I thought of myself as a compassionate individual. I know these messages were not meant to make me feel bad about myself, they are just pointing the way to some work that needs to be done, and I needed to know that I had some blind spots.

Now that May is done, I want to take a look back to see what happened really, haha. I think a lot happened. So to help me process some of that I pulled a few cards from the Tarot Everywhere deck and one card from the Life Path Cards, both by Kristen of
@otmoraclecards.

For that reading I just pulled 3 cards from the tarot deck, shown are the King of Wands, Death, and 5 of Cups.

Death and 5 of cups are pretty self explanatory. Death is a card about changes, something ending and something beginning, hopefully. This particular Death card makes me think: Time has run out, because of the meter. So when your meter has expired you either put some more coins in or you are on your way. I hope that I am on my way rather than still putting coins in, in the form of the same mistakes and actions.   Maybe time had run out on me dilly dallying around learning these two important messages and so my life brought me experiences to get the point across, tough lessons too.

The 5 of cups shows exactly how I was feeling. The 5 of cups can mean sadness, disappointment, regret, suffering, and emotional adjustment. Oh man, I totally felt all of those things, not at the same time thankfully!

The King of Wands appearing in this reading is leaving me a little puzzled. He is the companion to my favorite Queen. In this particular depiction he is shown as a successful business man. I especially like this description about the King of Wands from the Galaxy Tarot App:

The King of Wands is a natural leader. He is devoted to his family and those he leads. He is charming and kind and is motivated to take action to bring about positive change. He is decisive and courageous, and takes risks based on his gut feelings.

He knows himself well and is a very authentic person. He expresses his true nature in all he does. He acts and speaks with integrity.

Maybe someone close to me is becoming the King of Wands? Or I need to work on embodying this energy? Especially the part about knowing myself and expressing my true nature. That’s where I want to go!

Finally, the Life Path Card I drew shows a walk way leading to a calm scene in a lake with the mountain in the background. When I see this image I think of two things: 1. Relaxation and 2. Hunting/Fishing. As I kept looking at the card the idea of hunting started to take root, not because I like hunting or agree with hunting, but I do feel like I am hunting for something. We are all hunting. Then I remembered my namesake is Diana the Huntress. So this interpretation of this card seemed appropriate, not only that, but The Magician in the Wild Unknown deck is a wild cat, another hunter! I’ll have to dig deeper into this hunter energy.

In summary, the energy of the magician helped me make it through the month. It is true that we have all that we need within us. It’s up to us to get to work in finding it. I was able to turn some unsavory experiences into lessons learned. Although I spent some time wallowing in self pity, I moved on from it fairly quickly, if I do say so myself. The card description above talks about action, and I definitely took some actions that influenced my path. Event the smallest action is still an action nonetheless. For someone like me who spends a lot of time thinking and planning, to actually DO the thing I want to do is a big success.

Also, May was setting the stage for June, in June I am working with one of my Spiritual Guides. And that is material for another post later on!